Over the past five months I have made a serious commitment to my health and fitness. I am doing things I never imagined I'd even try (deadlifts, what??) and find myself actually enjoying.

My lifestyle has always been fairly active, but exercise routines have been fleeting at best. Luckily, I eat and enjoy whole and healthy foods and I am certain that kept me away from gaining excessive weight. However, after two births, a deep love affair with wine and cheese, a maturing metabolism, and some really hard times (as vaguely described in this post), I was not looking cute. I had gone up two dress sizes and overall felt bloaty and unhealthy. And if I am being completely honest, I was also depressed.

A dear friend of mine who saw me at my complete emotional worse this year said something that just clicked in me. Nothing works fully - therapy, medication, diet, etc- if you don't couple it with exercise. So, I pulled myself off the floor and called a trainer my husband had recommended years earlier. I needed someone to hold me accountable and also show me what the hell to do. I had the good fortune to be able invest some money in her and it was absolutely money well spent. It has completely changed me. I feel so. damn. good. Sometimes when I am in the gym doing my thing I almost have tears in my eyes thinking about how far I have come physically and more importantly, mentally.

I will share more about what I do at the gym another time. Music makes my world go round. Here is what I am listening to when I am getting those gains! Any songs you'd add? Share in the comments.